Hey, guys. I just wanted to post a quick update to explain some of the things that are going on with me. My oldest son is now in Los Angeles and doing okay–staying very busy in fact. It’s affected me in weird ways; I suppose because I know this is just the beginning. It’s very possible he’ll be moving and because of the distance, it’s making me feel a little negative. On one hand, I’m so very proud, but on the other, I miss him incredibly. It’s weird how just taking one out of the equation changes the family; the children are missing big brother as well.
My youngest son has found ways to get around his broken arm, but he’s very much looking forward to getting his cast off. He can’t write or ride his bike and it’s also affected his Lego building (his favorite activity), so believe it or not, it’s been a big adjustment for him. It’s amazing how strong he is though and how well he’s adapted. Children truly are resilient! The good news is that he should have it off before it’s time for swimming this summer.
My husband broke his hand last week and because he’s a firefighter, he’s now on light duty for six weeks or more, which puts him at work daily versus the every third day shift I’m used to. Not a huge deal, but it switches up our outdoor work plans quite a bit during this ‘go time’ in spring.
I’m laughing as I type…Minor changes, right? My body is still extremely sensitive. It seems that everything over the past three weeks (albeit minor) has caught up with me and it’s thrown me into a whirlwind of on and off depression and anxiety, something I haven’t dealt with in some time. It’s good to think forward, but my mind works in strange ways (intrusive thoughts) and it’s sent me to a strange place. I’m thinking too far into the future–full of the ‘what if’s’ again. A few days ago my husband asked me: “Why can’t you just take life as it comes?” The truth is: I don’t know. What I do know, is that after everything I’ve gone through in repairing my physical health, I still have a long way to go with my mental health as well.