On April 2nd this year, Cynder had her 2nd litter of eight puppies. We weren’t expecting her to have such a large litter, but knew that she’d have more than her first litter of three puppies because she was so huge during her pregnancy.
3 Days, 3 Quotes Tag
• Thank the person who nominated you.
• Post a quote for 3 consecutive days (1 quote for each day, can be a super short post).
• Nominate three new bloggers each day.
As Good As Gold: A dog’s life in poems
Author: Patricia Furstenberg
As engaging as a tail wag
Celebrating the simple things in life as seen through the eyes of our old time favourite furry friends, “As Good as Gold” is a volume of poetry revealing the talent and humour we always knew our dogs possessed.
Dogs are full of questions, yet they are famed sellers of innocence especially when it comes to explaining their mishaps and often foolish effervescence through ponderings such as “Why IS a Cat Not Like a Dog”, “As Brown as Chocolate”, “Silver Stars and Puppy Tail” or, best yet, “Dog or Book?”
A book with an enormous heart for readers of all ages, it includes 35 poems and haiku accompanied by expressive portraits of our canine friends. Continue reading “Blog Tour & Book Review: As Good As Gold: A Dog’s Life in Poems by Patricia Furstenberg #AsGoodAsGold”
I found this tag that Jessica Rachow did on her blog and thought it was so cute! If you haven’t checked out her blog yet, please do. You can meet her beautiful pup Cheyenne! I dis this tag for Bowie already and you can see it by clicking here. Today, I thought I’d talk about Cynder.
I learned about Flower Friday last year from Lorilin@Bugbugbooks and have been having a blast sharing some flower pictures and information. Please check out Lorilin’s blog if you haven’t already for book reviews and more!
Today’s flower I’m sharing is calendula. I’ve been growing this for about 3 years now as it’s super easy to grow from seed.
Calendula is a member of the daisy family and very similar to marigold. It’s also known as “pot marigold”. Continue reading “Flower Friday & New Puppies!”
For about two years, I was the caretaker of a little girl that belonged to a family friend. We would take care of her roughly three to four days a week and had to regularly deal with her parents who were split up. It was difficult dealing with them because they didn’t get along at all and stress seemed to always be heightened. If she would get a scraped knee, or a bruise, I always felt like I had to have this explanation to prove everything because her parents were hyper-vigilant. Living in the country, you just expect that your kids are going to have injuries sometimes from running around in the woods or getting into things. In general, kids get injuries no matter where they live. I finally decided that after two years of babysitting, I needed to stop. I told her parents that they would have to find someone else for a caretaker because I couldn’t handle the stress anymore and felt that I needed to concentrate on my own life and children. I decided at that point that I didn’t want to be responsible for someone else’s child anymore.
Then, last September, our dog Cynder had puppies. Those who follow my posts know that we kept one puppy (Bowie), and the other two have homes not far from ours. When Fig was purchased, his owner mentioned letting us see him again and I finally got the text last week asking if we wanted to dog sit for the weekend. The kids were elated and after discussing it with my husband, we decided it would be okay. We were going to see Fig again! How lucky could we be?
Puppy: 12 Months of Rhymes and Smiles
From the author of “Joyful Trouble”, No.1 Bestseller Children’s Historical Fiction, No.1 Most Gifted Young Adult and Top reviewed Kindle Storyteller book.
A puppy’s first year is filled with findings, wiggles and laughter.
Puppies squirm in all the odd places, sniff all the strange objects, lick everything they can and find something to splash into even when we don’t want them to!
This book of poems explores the first year of a puppy’s life, going through an adventure after the other, one month at a time.
Puppy’s first days, puppy’s first weeks in a new home, puppy’s encounters with snow and the school bag, puppy’s duty to protect… What happens when puppy is full of good intentions, yet his actions go wrong?
Read the rhymes and laugh with your little one.
“Puppy, 12 Months of Rhymes and Smiles: is an auditory feast for children, a fun read-aloud for parents, and treat for dog-lovers, young and old.
From the author of “Joyful Trouble”, No.1 Bestseller Children’s Historical Fiction, No.1 Most Gifted Young Adult and Top reviewed Kindle Storyteller book. – Goodreads
This cute little children’s book follows a puppy through its first 12 months of life, through all the seasons, through Christmas and the New Year, and back to spring again. The story is told from the puppy’s point of view and includes colorful illustrations throughout.
We enjoyed reading this sweet book that highlights the importance of family and will influence children to cherish and care for their pets. It’s educational, and the format is easy enough for young readers, yet perfect for reading out loud with your kids as well. Children will love following along in the story through each month and learning of puppy’s adventures with his ‘human pup’ friend. With the story coming from the puppy’s POV, my children began to ask themselves if our new little puppy might be thinking some of these same thoughts in the morning when the house is still quiet, or when it’s time to protect the house when strangers arrive, and even when they leave for the day. What goes on inside their little heads?
We enjoyed this book so much and we’re looking forward to reading more children’s books by Patricia Furstenberg.
You can find this book on Goodreads and also at the sites below:
I found this tag that Jessica Rachow did on her blog and thought it was so cute! If you haven’t checked out her blog yet, please do. You can meet her beautiful pup Cheyenne!
1. What is your pets name?
Her name is Bowie.
2. What kind of pet is it and what breed?
She’s a border collie puppy.
3. How long have you had your pet friend?
Bowie was born on September 12th, 2017. So, about 11 weeks.
4. How did you get your pet?
Bowie was born from Cynder and Winston’s first litter.
5. How old is your pet?
She’s about 11 weeks old.
6. What are some quirky things about your pets personality?
She’s your typical pup I suppose. If she gets into the bathrooms, she’ll snag the toilet paper and shred it all over the house. She’s already stolen ornaments off the Christmas tree too. A cute thing she does is steal Winston’ s bone or even his toys. He doesn’t like to share and it’s taking him forever to get used to her. She’s really smart and runs the toys into our bedroom under the bed where the big dogs won’t go.
-She tries to jump on the couch repeatedly and flips herself upside down in the process.
-She gets zoomies after her baths and runs all over the house.
-When I ask her to sit for her treat, she sits, but after I give her a treat she slides to the ground because she’s fairly lazy like Winston.
7. What does your relationship with your pet mean to you?
Everything. We love all of our pets and I don’t know what I’d do without them. Each one is unique in their own way and they all amaze me.
8. What are some of your favorite past times with your pet?
-Every morning after she’s gone outside we head into our mudroom to let her eat. She’s so silly. She’ll do tricks for morsels of food even though there’s a whole bowl of food sitting there.
-We love taking them on runs too. I like to jog outside and it’s fun letting her run alongside me. She’s pretty good about staying with me.
9. What are nicknames that you call your pet?
It seems like everyone in the house has their own name for her. I call her Bo, Bo’s, and Bowie. Yesterday I called her Bobo which was weird. My husband calls her Bowsters. My kids call her BowieBowieBowie. She has many variations!
There are so many pets I’d like to get to know. I’m going to go ahead and tag some people, but don’t feel pressured to do the tag if you don’t want to. I’ll be honest and say I have the worst brain fog and I bet I’m forgetting someone which is never my intention. So, if you want to do this tag, please do! You are tagged. I would love to know more about your pet.
Thanks for checking out this tag. Do you have anything you’d like to share about your pets? Please feel free to leave comments below. ❤
It’s hard to believe that it’s been eight weeks since my family was blessed with three tiny border collie puppies. It’s been an interesting journey for us and we’ve learned so much. We decided right away that we would keep one of these puppies and let the other two go to homes. The kids understood this and we’ve enjoyed every minute with them, but when it came time to let the other two go, it was very hard. You really can’t help falling in love with puppies that you’re with from the time they’re born. I knew it would be hard for them because we have bonded with all three of them, but we decided that we would stick to the original plan to keep Bowie and let Fig and Lotus go to a new home.
A few weeks ago, I took all three in for their vet checkup where they were examined, received vaccinations, wormer, and their flea and tick treatment. Their weights were perfect and there was only one problem–Lotus was found to have an inguinal hernia. At first, I was shocked. I’m not a professional breeder and this is the first litter we’ve ever experienced. I didn’t even think about the fact that there could be some things that might go wrong. The vet assured us that it really isn’t that big of a deal, but that she might require surgery later on in life, or she could also outgrow it. When I got home I started doing tons of research. I called all the vets in my area to find out how much the surgery would cost and what age she could have it. I knew there would be no way we could sell her with the chance that she might require surgery in the future. The responsible thing to do is to have it fixed beforehand, but the problem is that three out of four vets that I called recommended waiting until six months. Only one vet said they would do the surgery and she couldn’t even tell me on the phone the last time they did one of these types of surgeries. That just wasn’t going to work. With us just losing Toby last month, I’m not willing to risk the surgery when we don’t even know for sure that it will remain. There’s a good chance it will heal with time.
I decided that we would do one of two things–we would either keep her or rehome her to someone we know very well. I want to be sure that she will receive the care that she needs and I’m very leery about listing animals for free. In the past, we had a litter of kittens we raised and needed to find homes for them. When they were old enough, I listed them on Craigslist for free. Within an hour of listing them, I received two or three emails from different people telling me to remove the listing because I was putting the kittens at risk. As I read on, the person explained that there are people who look for animals on ads for free because they can take them to animal testing centers and make money off them. ?? I was shocked and never even heard of this! As I continued reading, I was warned of another risk of someone coming to get free animals to take home and torture. That really shocked me even more. It was also explained that these people often bring children with them to make it look like they are giving them a good home to trick you into giving them your animals. Seriously? I immediately removed the kittens and I’ve never listed animals for free on Craigslist ever again. Are these things true? Are there really people out there that do these things? I’m not willing to take that risk. I don’t think any level of interviewing can really make it safe and I’ve never forgotten the experience. I realize that there isn’t much control in how the animal will be cared for once it’s out of your hands, but I guess it makes sense that offering an animal for free might put it at more of a risk.
Lotus went to her new home and it’s right down the road from our house. We know the family very well and my oldest child works on the farm there. It couldn’t have worked out more perfect because my kids hang out there with the horses often. They can see her whenever they want to. I was really hoping to just keep Lotus with us, but I feel like she’s better off where she is. They showed so much interest in her and we knew this would be her forever home. There are other border collies there, another puppy she plays with, and she can herd the horses and experience many other farm activities. She’s just like Cynder and we knew right away that she was going to be a busybody and that she’d need work with mental stimulation to stay happy.
Last week we listed Fig on a reputable site and sold him to a family that lives about an hour away from our home. The nice thing is that we hit it off with the man right away and it turned out to be a positive experience.
We’ve been keeping in touch via text and he’s willing to send us pictures every once in a while so that we can see him as he grows. I miss him so much and think about him a lot. I’m glad that this worked out for Fig though. It was incredibly hard for us and I was up half the night thinking about him the first night. Keeping in touch with them is helping a lot, especially with the kids.
I still remember when we were searching for a border collie and in the process, I would find all of these rescues and breeders who would request your address and would want to come check out your house–they would even ask for references. I used to think it was crazy until these guys came along. I feel very protective of them and this was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
So now, we just have Bowie. We have decided to keep her for sure. I’ve questioned myself because they are a lot of work, but we’re really excited and it’s nice to have a pup from Cynder and Winston. She started jumping out of her pen so we began crate training and it’s amazing how well she’s doing. She’s already showing strong signs of intelligence. She’s learned her name plus sits and downs. It appears that she’ll be more laid back like Winston.
Here’s something interesting though. We named her Bowie when she was born before her eyes were opened and it turned out that she has two different colored eyes which reminds me of David Bowie!
David Bowie had anisocoria which made his eyes appear different due to the pupil size. Our Bowie also has a right blue eye and a brownish left eye which looks similar to David Bowie’s. Isn’t that cool?
Originally I was worried that having another dog might be too hard, especially since it’s a puppy, but overall, this has been a good experience for us. Having another dog may be more work, more hair to clean up, more food, but most importantly…
I thought I’d do a quick update for those who are interested in how Cynder is doing with her three new puppies. It’s hard to believe that they’ll be three weeks old on Tuesday. They’re doing great and getting huge!
Cynder has adapted well to motherhood, but she needs a lot of breaks. I thought that having puppies might slow her down a little bit, but she seems to be even more hyper with an abundance of energy. She was already back to playing and herding the day after having the puppies. It’s like she never had puppies.
We have names for the three pups. The merle puppy that reminds of us Winston we decided to name Bowie. She’s the biggest out of the three, although not by much. We can already tell that her eyes will more than likely stay blue like Winstons. This is the puppy we chose to keep. Here are some pictures of her below.
Her eyes both opened last weekend. She’s already starting to play and growls and barks a little bit. This is a picture from a few days ago. Her eyes are already lighter.
The second pup born is a boy and it looks like he’ll be tricolor. Mainly black and white, with some brown above his eyes and a little on the sides of his face. He’s so different! His eyes are dark and we think they’ll stay amber/brown like Cynders. We named him Fig.
The third pup born is the runt, or should I say ‘was’ the runt. She’s a little smaller than the first too, but huge compared to what she was when she was born! She’s just about the same size as Fig. We named her (Little) Lotus.
She had one eye left closed that just finally opened a few days ago in the picture above. It appears that her eyes will most likely be brown. She reminds me so much of Cynder and I think she’ll look just like her.
They’re doing well! They’re still not able to get out of the kiddie pool. When that happens, we’ll move them to a different location. I’m thinking maybe 2 weeks tops and they’ll need to be moved.
Winston enjoys checking on them throughout the day, but he still isn’t sure of them.
On September 12th, at 2:38 a.m., Cynder had her first pup followed by two more.
The evening prior, she began nesting and digging around the house. I thought for sure this week we’d have puppies, but didn’t know that it would be that quick. She honestly went at it like a pro. She didn’t cry or seem distressed…
Winston sounded the alarm and woke up my oldest son right after she had the first puppy. We really didn’t need to assist her at all.
Puppy 1 – 2:38 a.m. – Looks just like Winston and a big girl.
Puppy 2 – 3:34 a.m. – Looks just like Cynder, a little bigger than the first pup, and a boy.
Puppy 3 – 4:00 a.m. – The runt of the litter. Looks just like Cynder, but so very tiny. Another girl.
She’s been such a great mom and they are nursing away and already growing. It still seems surreal that she had puppies. She didn’t change much during pregnancy and those that read the Lesson’s from Grandpa post #5 know that we questioned the whole time whether or not she was truly pregnant. I’m really glad that we waited and just let everything happen naturally.
Hello friends! I’m excited to share this wonderful homemade dog treat recipe with you today! I’ve been making this one for years and my dogs always love them. They’re super easy to make and all natural!
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been in the store buying dog treats and the treats that I want to buy include ingredients I don’t want to feed my dog. Not only that, they are expensive. This recipe is a great alternative to buying store treats and it’s quite versatile. They’re cheap to make and you can switch up the ingredients if you’d like by using beef liver or even peanut butter.
Homemade Chicken Liver Brownies
- Roughly 5 cups of oat flour
- 1 Container of Chicken Livers – about 2 1/2 cups
- 2 Large Eggs
- Roughly 1/4 cup cheese (Parmesan or Mozzarella, whatever you have on hand)
- 2 TB Olive Oil
In May I discovered a children’s book titled Tuesday Tucks Me In by Luis Carlos Montalván. After learning about service dogs and the relationship that Luis and Tuesday developed, I wanted to learn more. I went on to read every book I could find regarding Luis and Tuesday and learned all about how important service dogs are to our wounded veterans, veterans living with PTSD, people with physical disabilities, and even children with autism. If you’d like to see my original posts regarding these books which include videos and many pictures of Luis and Tuesday, you can find them by clicking the links below.
An Interview with Bret Witter – Co-Author of Until Tuesday, Tuesday Takes me There, and Tuesday Tucks Me In.
In the book Until Tuesday, Luis discusses where Tuesday came from and explains a little bit about Lu Picard, the co-founder of ECAD, where Tuesday was trained. Lu Picard was kind enough to answer some of my questions regarding ECAD, and a few regarding Luis and Tuesday. I’ve included some information about ECAD below as well as my Q&A with Lu Picard and hope that everyone will enjoy reading and learning more about it.
What is ECAD?
ECAD stands for Educated Canines Assisting Disabilities and is a non-profit organization founded by Lu and Dale Picard. ECAD provides highly skilled Service Dogs to assist people living with disabilities.
How did ECAD get started?
After Lu Picard’s father suffered from a stroke, she discovered how she could train their family dog to help her father become independent again and more like himself. She decided that this was what she wanted to do: train service dogs for those that needed them. She started ECAD in 1995 and a year later her husband became involved full-time as well. They now have training facilities in Connecticut and New York.
Here are two amazing videos from Marlo Thomas on her “The Hero Next Door” series which highlights Lu Picard’s story and gives viewers an idea of some of the training that goes on at ECAD and also how Lu Picard has helped children with disabilities get involved with training dogs.
Continue Reading for the Q&A!
A few weeks ago I came across a book on Goodreads titled A World Without Color: A True Story Of the Last Three Days With My Cat and knew right away I needed to read it. It’s a memoir written by Bernard Jan pertaining to the loss of his beloved cat Marcel. Bernard was very kind to offer some of his time to discuss his writing and some other questions I had about the book. You can see my Q&A with Bernard Jan below.
If you’d like to see my previous post including my review for the book, you can click HERE.
Click the cover to add on Goodreads, or pick it up on Amazon by clicking HERE.
Kindle Unlimited members can read this for free!
I was nominated by Noriko@DiaryofaBookFiend for the lovely Sunshine Blogger Award last month. This is now my second for this award. I’d like to thank her for nominating me. Also, please check out Noriko’s blog. She has tons of book reviews, wrap-ups, Goodreads Monday and scads of awards and tags. I personally have enjoyed reading her “#tidbits on Japan” posts which have highlighted a few different recipes from Japan where she lives. I’m looking forward to learning more about her culture and I’m happy to have her as a friend.
What is the Sunshine Blogger Award?
The Sunshine Blogger Award is given to those who are creative, positive and inspiring, while spreading sunshine to the blogging community.
How Does It Work:
- Thank the person(s) who nominated you in a blog post and link back to their blog
- Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you
- Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and write them 11 new questions
- List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo on your post and/or on your blog
What is your ideal vacation?
I love just chillaxing wherever I am. I love being at home, hanging out at the beach, and being out in nature. Ideal is doing what I like and being where I want to be.
What do you love about yourself?
I’m told that I’m creative and I love that. When I make something and someone says, “Wow, you made that?”, It makes me feel awesome.
What do wish you could change about yourself?
There are actually a few things, but I would choose becoming more self-confident as my first choice.
What book are you reading now?
I’m reading Marcel Malone by Lew Watts and Beauty and the Beast by Vivienne Savage (audible).
What keeps you blogging?
What keeps me blogging? That’s a hard one. I’m going to say interacting with people. I love learning about others. I’m going to mention a few specific people here that inspire me to continue blogging and that’s my mom (Starjustin), James, Nel, Stephanie, Vanessa, Claire, Noriko, Mohamad, Kim, Lana, Dani, Jo-Ann, Robin, Jennifer C, Dave, Donna, Misty, Kim, Christina, Anthony, MoJo and the list goes on. I also appreciate the authors that take the time out of their busy schedules to do Q&A’s with me, I love that. I’ve learned so much and met some awesome people. That’s why I keep blogging.
You are having a relaxing evening. What are you doing?
Either hanging with my family, having some tea while wrapped up in a good book, or simply listening to some great music.
Do you have pets?
Yes, I have two border collies and a ton of outdoor cats. I love animals, and I wish I could give every single animal in the world a good life. Here are a few pics…
Winston and Cynder
Rambo The Wise
We had 13 kittens in April. I’ll do a post on them soon…
Favourite pizza toppings?
I try not to eat meat or pizza in general, but I’ll say Sausage, Pepperoni, Onion, and Banana Pepper.
Coffee, tea or wine or other?
Organic decaf coffee and I love tea as well. Pukka and Yogi are my favorite tea brands.
What is your favourite season?
Definitely fall and winter. I don’t deal well with the summer heat and look forward to harvest time and Christmas.
What is your favourite book genre?
I absolutely love memoirs and non-fiction in general. I love learning about people and their pasts, and what they’re doing with their lives.
Continue for the nominees!
I was very excited to be nominated a few days ago @ caterpillars2butterfliesblog for the Versatile Blogger Award. If you haven’t checked out her blog, please do. There are so many feel-good, inspirational posts here and I look forward to reading them daily! Great advice. Thank you for nominating me!
RULES OF THE VERSATILE BLOGGER AWARD:
1.) Thank the bloggers who nominated you and share their links.
2.) Nominate at least 10 bloggers for the award and provide links to their blogs.
3.) Also inform them about their nomination.
4.) Reveal 7 facts about yourself that your readers may not know.
-7 Things About Me-
1. I can play a handful of instruments including: Guitar, Piano, Clarinet, Saxophone, Violin, Lap harp and a few others.
2. I’m very interested in people who have experienced NDE’s or Near Death Experiences. I used to spend quite a bit of time reading and studying them.
3. We just had 13 kittens in April. Most have gone to homes. We have 5 left. Out of these 3 you see here, we have Ash left. Can you guess which one he is? Back left. His attitude fits his look. Every one of these kittens has a different personality. I’ll post more about them later.
4. Despite striving for a healthy lifestyle, I’ve actually struggled with food addiction since I was about 15 and continue to battle with it. I ❤ food, especially homemade baked goods like these cupcakes I made recently, or this organic Amish bread I make often. It literally melts in your mouth. Recipes to come soon.
5. I have two border collies, Cynder & Winston. You may have read about them here on my blog. I love them very much.
6. I have an extreme joy for gardening and love growing pumpkins, including giant pumpkins for the Halloween season. Halloween is my favorite time of year. I’m super excited that fall is on the way.
7. I can’t wait for the next season of Poldark in October! I’ve read the whole saga and loved the books. More Aiden Turner please. 🙂
Continue for the nominees!
A World Without Color
A World Without Color: A True Story of the Last Three Days with my Cat is a short memoir about one family’s experience of losing a beloved pet, a cat named Marcel. Bernard Jan lays out his experience with Marcel’s last 3 days of life as the emotions pour out of him on screen.
I found this book on Goodreads this morning after reading one of Bernard Jan’s blog posts and it sounded like a must read. As a person who has many pets, I sometimes think about what it’ll be like when the time comes to let them go. I wonder when, how, and what sort of choices I’ll have to make. In this book, the author tells his whole story about what his cat Marcel’s last 3 days were like interlaced with memories of the past. He writes about the effects of losing a best friend for himself and his family.
At multiple times I cried and could feel his emotions. He expresses what he’s feeling physically, his thoughts and emotions, everything so raw and real. Despite the sadness, I love the way this author writes.
“And wherever I go, whatever I do, I will try to let you also feel a touch of the world through which we will walk together. I’ll be your eyes. My heart will beat for you. My lungs will soak up the scents of the seasons, and the music from the radio will lull us to sleep together.”
At first, I wasn’t sure about the additional ending. I felt like the fact that it was a true story meant that it should end the way the real story did, but it was unique that the author included an alternative ending for those that wanted a different outcome.
The events Bernard Jan experiences are something no pet owner wants to endure. Every once in awhile you read a book by an author and you wish you could give him a hug. This is that book…
If you’re a Kindle Unlimited Member, you can read this for free! For everyone else it’s only $1.99 right now on Amazon.
I told the kids to let you both out. It was a busy day and I had no time for anything. I was a little stressed and hadn’t managed my time very well that day.
I’m not sure how much time went by, maybe ten or fifteen minutes, but I realized you weren’t in the house. I realized that I forgot you guys were even outside.
I opened the door and you were nowhere to be found. I called you both and a minute later Winston came running up to the house from the woods, black and murky from head to tail.
I knew you guys either ran to the pond or maybe the ditch. Judging from the fish water smell, I guessed the ditch because the stench was almost unbearable. But, why weren’t you coming home?
I wasn’t surprised that Winston ran home so fast. He’s a home boy, but not you. You’re one of those dogs you see in the commercials on TV, running through fields of freedom, a hard working dog that can run all day without a break. Like the hard working dog on the Sesame Street video from when I was a kid.**
I continued to call for you and by that point, I started to panic. From the look on everyone’s face, it was obvious what they were thinking. I’d really screwed up this time. Where had you gone?
My first thought in my mind was that if someone found you, we’d never get you back. All it would take is one look in those big brown eyes. You’d be gone forever. How could I have done this?
We called and called and clapped our hands. All was quiet. We checked the pond and walked to the ditch. You weren’t anywhere in sight. I knew if you heard us calling your name, you’d bark. You always do that to let us know you heard us. I realized you must’ve been really far, but where?
I hopped in the car and began to drive. I realized that I’d been so busy, we never got a chance to play Frisbee with you guys. It was still cold out too. Why didn’t I take the time to run you out today? Had you eaten? Shoot, you didn’t even have your identification collar on.
I drove all over from block to block looking for you. I glanced over at every field. It was sunny, but cold, and absolutely nobody on the road. I pulled over and got out. I called for you. After about twenty minutes, the tears started. I began to panic.
I continued to drive. I was hysterical and the tears were flooding my eyes to the point where I couldn’t see well. I pulled over and began to pray. “Please God, bring her home. I screwed up. I’m so mad at myself. Please bring her home safe. Please, God, don’t take her from me.”
It was 3:45pm and at that point it had been over a half hour. The humane society closes at 4pm daily and I needed to call to report that you were lost, otherwise they wouldn’t know to watch for you.
First, I called animal control and left a message. When I called the Humane Society I could barely hear the guy. There were so many dogs barking in the background. I couldn’t describe you to the man. I was losing it and entered a totally panicked state.
I gave him your description through my broken voice. “She’s a black and white border collie, 2 years old, on the smaller side.” He asked your name and that’s when I really lost it. He told me, “We’ll call if she shows up or we hear from somebody.” I could hear the reassurance in his voice, but it still didn’t comfort me.
I had to call mom. Who else could I call? I knew she would ask me why I left you out. She would ask, “How did you forget?” She loves you too.
I told her the truth, that I was too busy doing other things. My mind was lost somewhere between the internet and washing clothes. I cried and couldn’t sit still. I wasn’t breathing right. I paced around the house.
We probably had about forty five minutes of daylight left. I began thinking about the boy that showed up late one night last fall and asked us if he could look around our property for his dog. That night I was thinking, “that poor guy.” Now, I might be in those shoes.
As my mind kept analyzing what to do next, mom was talking into the phone, but I was barely processing anything she was saying. I couldn’t concentrate. Every word went in one ear and out the other.
I started thinking about what life would be like without you. I’d miss your herding behaviors around the house. You wouldn’t be at my feet anymore. No more hugs and smiles. You’re the only dog I know that truly smiles.
As I stood in the hallway with my back to the door, I began to put my shoes back on. I was going to have to drive some more. I wasn’t coming back home without you. I had plans to start asking door to door.
I went to open the door and there you were. I could see you standing just behind the glass in the door. My heart dropped into my stomach. I let out a long sigh.
You were so dirty and had icicles hanging off your fur. While I’d been panicking, you were running free and having the time of your life. I knew you must’ve been swimming in the ditch. I bet it was really fun for you, all that freedom.
When I brought you in and saw the mess, I knew it would take hours to get you clean. You had burrs throughout your whole coat of fur. You were shaking and breathing hard. I was so happy to see you. I wasn’t mad at you.
I put you in the tub and began cleaning you up. I continued to cry and was still very angry with myself. I thanked God repeatedly for helping you find your way home. It was a close call and it was going to take me awhile to get over this, even though you were home. I was so thankful.
I enjoyed every minute of grooming you that day. I appreciated every second of it. I stopped to reflect on just how much you meant to me. I reminded myself that this incident could never happen again.
Every time I bathe you, I think about that day, the day we almost lost you. I won’t ever forget it, Cynder Rae. I’m not going to screw up like that again. I’ll be sure to remember your Frisbee time from now on too.