Music Monday: Soundgarden “Rusty Cage” & “The Day I Tried To Live” | Audioslave “Show Me How To Live” & “I Am The Highway” | Chris Cornell “Sunshower” & “River of Deceit”

-Music Monday-

This meme was created by Drew @ The Tattooed Book Geek. You pick a song that you really like and share it on Monday!

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From May 7th: When I first started this blog, one of my intentions was to talk about music as much as possible, hence my blog name. 🙂 My very first music blog post from March 2017 featured Mad Season, a band that eventually included Chris Cornell and the next, Temple of the Dog. It felt great to talk about some of the music I’ve always loved. Little did I know, just a few months later he’d be gone like so many others before him.

I’m not one of those people who usually count dates or add up the time since someone has been gone, yet here I am doing it with Chris. It’s been a year this month and I can’t believe the time has flown. For the whole month of May–to honor Chris–I’ll be sharing some of my favorite Chris Cornell songs.


On Friday, which marked one year since Chris’s passing, I shared “Live To Rise” by Soundgarden. If you’d like to see that post you can click here.


Audioslave “Show Me How To Live”

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Chris Cornell 1964-2017 | Soundgarden “Live To Rise”

One year ago today, the music world received the sad and shocking news that Chris Cornell had passed away.

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In memory of one of my favorite musicians of all-time, I’ve been sharing Chris’s music throughout the month of May for Music Mondays. In addition, today I’d like to share a song Chris wrote from the Avengers Assemble album, which includes songs from Marvel’s The Avengers movie (2012). This album marked Soundgarden’s return with their first song in 15 years.

My family and I were at the drive-in when the song played during the closing credits of the movie. It was a breathtaking moment for me especially. I’ve loved the song ever since, but never really thought much about the meaning of the lyrics. The song adapts well with the movie and it’s not like I knew Chris personally or what he was going through, but it seems like he was on his own spiritual journey during this time, possibly even back when he was writing some of the earlier Audioslave songs. Everyone interprets songs differently, but to me, this one is fairly clear-cut.

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“Live To Rise”

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Music Monday: Soundgarden “Outshined” | Temple Of The Dog “Hunger Strike” | Chris Cornell “Seasons”

-Music Monday-

This meme was created by Drew @ The Tattooed Book Geek. You pick a song that you really like and share it on Monday!

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From last week: When I first started this blog, one of my intentions was to talk about music as much as possible, hence my blog name. 🙂 My very first music blog post from March 2017 featured Mad Season, a band that eventually included Chris Cornell and the next, Temple of the Dog. It felt great to talk about some of the music I’ve always loved. Little did I know, just a few months later he’d be gone like so many others before him.

I’m not one of those people who usually count dates or add up the time since someone has been gone, yet here I am doing it with Chris. It’s been a year this month and I can’t believe the time has flown. For the whole month of May–to honor Chris–I’ll be sharing some of my favorite Chris Cornell songs.


Soundgarden “Outshined”

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Music Monday: Soundgarden “Blow Up The Outside World” and “Searching With My Good Eye Closed”

-Music Monday-

This meme was created by Drew @ The Tattooed Book Geek. You pick a song that you really like and share it on Monday!

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When I first started this blog, one of my intentions was to talk about music as much as possible, hence my blog name. 🙂 My very first music blog post from March 2017 featured Mad Season, a band that included Chris Cornell and the next, Temple of the Dog. It felt great to talk about some of the music I’ve always loved. Little did I know, just a few months later he’d be gone like so many others before him.

I’m not one of those people who usually count dates or add up the time since someone has been gone, yet here I am doing it with Chris. It’s been a year this month and I can’t believe the time has flown. For the whole month of May–to honor Chris–I’ll be sharing some of my favorite Chris Cornell songs.


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“Blow Up The Outside World”

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Music Monday: Soundgarden “Slaves and Bulldozers”

Music Monday-

This meme was created by Drew @ The Tattooed Book Geek. You pick a song that you really like and share it on Monday. I love this meme and look forward to sharing a new song every week! Hope you enjoy. 🖤

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I had every intention to lay off my thoughts about Chris Cornell in 2018. Not to forget him, but to let go of the fact that he’s gone and not dwell on it anymore. I’m not sure that dwell is a good word to use, I mean, it’s not disrupting my life, but the thoughts still remain.

On New Year’s Eve I had this very vivid dream of him and the other Soungarden members coming to a concert event I had planned. I was chatting with him and asked if he’d like to be part of the show. He agreed, showed up, performed, and there I was right in the front, singing and stomping around to “Slaves and Bulldozers.” The weirdest part of the dream was that there weren’t many people there and tons of seats were empty. After the show we chatted and I had this very confused feeling like the show wasn’t right–like they weren’t happy about something. I had this horrible, sad feeling and then I woke up in tears. I hate those dreams when you wake up and it feels so real until reality kicks in and you realize it wasn’t. I’m pretty sure what sparked the dream was watching clips from the May 2017 performance in Detroit from the night he passed. It was horrendous and seemed very obvious that Chris wasn’t himself, in my opinion. The fact that he complained to his wife about how he blew out his voice that night left me thinking he was down on himself. I’ve thought about that a lot, that maybe he felt burned out, or felt that he wasn’t performing well enough. Hence, the empty seats in my dream maybe, but who really knows. The freakiest part about dreaming them performing this song is that “Slaves and Bulldozers” was indeed the last song they played that night in Detroit and I didn’t even realize it until afterwards.

Anyhow, I can’t hide the sadness I have inside, but I know I have to accept that he’s gone. It’ll be a year in May and I’m still in mourning, but that’s ok. Some people say, “who cares?” Well, plenty of people care and I’m one of them. I’m not going to try and suppress the feelings anymore because someone tells me I need to. These feelings are part of me and expressing them surprisingly makes me feel better.

So, here it is. “Slaves and Bulldozers” from my favorite Soundgarden album of all time, Badmotorfinger. 

 

LYRICS

Every word I said is what I mean
Every word I said is what I mean
Everything I gave is what I need
Virgin eyes and dirty looks
On what I have and why I took
Counting all the hands I shook

Now I know why you’ve been shaking
Now I know why you’ve been shaking
Now I know why you’ve been shaking
Now I know why you’ve been shaking

So bleed your heart out
There’s no more rides for free
Bleed your heart out
I said what’s in it for me, what’s in it for me

Everything I’ve held is what I’ve freed
Everything I’ve held is what I’ve freed
Everything I’ve shown is what I feel
Buying lies and stealing jokes
And laughing every time I choke
Biding all the time you took

Now I know why you’ve been taken
Now I know why you’ve been taken
Now I know why you’ve been taken
Now I know why you’ve been taken

So bleed your heart out
There’s no more rides for free, yeah
Bleed your heart out
I said what’s in it for me, what’s in it for me
What’s in it for, what’s in it for

Every word I said is what I mean
Everything I gave is what I need
Everything I’ve held is what I’ve freed
Everything I’ve shown is what I feel

Virgin eyes and dirty looks
On what I have and why I took
Counting all the hands I shook
Now I know why you’ve been shaking

Buying lies and stealing jokes
And laughing every time I choke
Biding all the time you took
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Music Monday: Chris Cornell “Nearly Forgot My Broken Heart”

Music Monday

This meme was created by Drew from The Tattooed Book Geek. You pick a song that you really like and share it on Monday! I’d like to thank Drew for creating this meme because it’s unique and I love it.

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This week’s song pick is…

Nearly Forgot My Broken Heart

by Chris Cornell

I chose this song for today because it’s been on my mind a lot lately and comes from one of my most favorite albums of all time “Higher Truth” which was released in 2015.

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The song is great and lyrics too, but the controversy now is the music video. It’s since been removed from YouTube after Chris Cornell’s death due to the content.

In the video which takes place in the old west, Chris Cornell and Eric Roberts play prison mates soon to be executed. Right before Chris Cornell is to be hanged, a lady in watching distracts the hangman and the assistant sabotages the noose so that it’ll break when they hang him. She saves his life and he is forced into marriage with her. Afterwards, another prisoner is to be hanged, and the story starts all over again. Chris isn’t the only one to escape death, but what is the meaning of it?

An interesting fact is that the blonde boy in the video is Chris Cornell’s 10-year-old son.


Lyrics

Every time I stare into the sun
Trying to find a reason to go on
All I ever get is burned and blind
Until the sky bleeds the pouring rain

When you came along the time was right
Pulled me like an apple red and ripe
Wasn’t very long you took a bite
And did me wrong, and it serves me right

And I nearly forgot my broken heart
It’s taking me miles away,
From the memory of how we broke apart
Here we go round again, again

Every little key unlocks the door
Every little secret has a lie
Tryna take a picture of the sun
And it won’t help you to see the light

Every little word upon your lips
Makes a little cut where blood pours out
Every little drop of blood a kiss that I won’t miss
Not for anything

And I nearly forgot my broken heart
It’s taking me miles away,
From the memory of how we broke apart
Here we go round again
Every single feeling tells me this is leading to a heart
In broken little pieces and you know I need this
Like a hole in the head

Every single feeling tells me this is leading to a heart
In broken little pieces and you know I need this
Like a hole in the head

And I nearly forgot my broken heart
It’s taking me miles away,
From the memory of how we broke apart
Here we go round again

And I nearly forgot my broken heart
It’s taking me miles away,
From the memory of how we broke apart
Here we go round again

Here we go round again
Here we go round again
Here we go round again

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R.I.P. Chester Bennington – 1976-2017

I was very sad to just learn that Chester Bennington, the lead singer of Linkin Park, died after committing suicide today. The rock world has lost another amazing singer. I’m at a loss for words with this coming just after Chris Cornell’s death a few months ago.

Hunger Strike with Chris and Chester singing together

Chester Bennington was close friends with Chris and I do believe he was also a Godfather to one of his children. They had what I believe was a special friendship.

I’ve been listening to Linkin Park since the very beginning and I just can’t believe that Chester’s gone. Here are a few of my favorites below…

Numb

 

Somewhere I belong:

 

One Step Closer

 

What I’ve Done

 


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Chester singing “Hallelujah” at Chris Cornell’s Funeral

I don’t know what Chester was going through, but I pray that both he and Chris rest in peace.

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Chris Cornell: Thoughts on Suicide & Forgiveness

It’s been a little over a week since I awoke from sleep and learned that one of my favorite singers of all time had passed away. At the time I learned about it, nothing had been concluded on the details of how he died and all I could think about was the fact that he was gone. One of the first thoughts I had when I learned that Chris had died was that he would now be reunited with Andrew Wood, Layne Staley, Kurt Kobain, Scott Weiland, Mike Starr, Shannon Hoon, and others.

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From the left: Scott Weiland, Shannon Hoon, Andrew Wood, Kurt Kobain, Layne Staley, and Mike Starr in the front.

Later on that day it was confirmed that Chris had committed suicide. I think some of the thoughts that people have when losing someone to suicide might be like those posted on the image above. I’ve had some of them myself. I lost my stepmother to drugs when I was a teen. It wasn’t a suicide, but a death caused by carelessness. I was angry over her choices and wondered why she didn’t care to live. It wasn’t until I got older and thought about the pain that she endured on Earth from losing two young brothers and then her parents not long after that finally helped me accept it. She truly never got over their deaths. I was just angry, sad and bitter. I wanted her here and mourned her death probably more than anyone else.

I got to talking with people about Chris and an anonymous person mentioned to me that it was possible that he would not be accepted into heaven because he committed suicide. It’s always been my personal thought that when we die, our soul goes to Heaven. This anonymous person then proceeded to tell me that when people commit suicide they are committing an unforgivable sin and are lost from God forever. As if Chris’s death wasn’t hard enough, this caused me to sob even more.

I was shocked. Could I really be this ignorant about what the Bible says about suicide? I was raised Orthodox and have spent the majority of my life in one Church or another, but I couldn’t say for sure and had no way to refute the statement. I began to ponder about it and started roaming the internet. I was questioning in my head whether Chris was a Christian. It’s no surprise that many of his lyrics highlight a troubled soul and it’s possible that he was tormented with his own thoughts. I do wonder if maybe he was searching for his own answers as he was an open thinker. I then reminded myself of all the songs that helped me believe what was in his heart. Even though I read that he possibly considered himself agnostic, I go back to the songs that give me insight to his beliefs.


Audioslave – Like a Stone

Lyrics:

On a cobweb afternoon
In a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages
Of a book full of death
Reading how we’ll die alone
And if we’re good, we’ll lay to rest
Anywhere we want to go
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I’ll wait for you there
Like a stone
I’ll wait for you there
Alone
On my deathbed I will pray
To the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven
To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The wine was bled
And there you led me on
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I’ll wait for you there
Like a stone
I’ll wait for you there
Alone
Alone
And on I read
Until the day was gone
And I sat in regret
Of all the things I’ve done
For all that I’ve blessed
And all that I’ve wronged
In dreams until my death
I will wander on
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I’ll wait for you there
Like a stone
I’ll wait for you there
Alone
Alone
When I first heard this song it almost seemed as if Chris was speaking directly in this song. What do you think the song means? There are many different thoughts on it. 

Audioslave – I Am The Highway

Lyrics:
Pearls and swine bereft of me
Long and weary my road has been
I was lost in the cities
Alone in the hills
No sorrow or pity for leaving I feel
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
Friends and liars don’t wait for me
I’ll get on all by myself
I put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close to you
I feel
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightning
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night
The night
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightning
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night
The night

When I listen to this song it makes me think of a person who is already gone, possibly in heaven, and doesn’t want to return. He’s now everything. What do you think? 

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In Memory of Chris Cornell

I was shocked and saddened this morning to hear on the news that one of my favorite singers of all time, Chris Cornell, has passed away at the age of 52. One of the original architects that formed the grunge movement has been taken and has now joined other artists such as Andrew Wood, Layne Staley, Scott Weiland, Shannon Hoon, Kurt Kobain, and Mike Starr. It’s going to take me forever to get over this one…

This post may be a little choppy…

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Chris was the lead singer of Soundgarden, Audioslave and also Temple of the Dog, an album created in remembrance to Andrew Wood. He had a powerful and defining voice. Here’s a video of “Fell On Black Days.”

Lyrics

Whatsoever I’ve feared has come to life
Whatsoever I’ve fought off became my life
Just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile
Sunspots have faded and now I’m doing time
Now I’m doing time
‘Cause I fell on black days
I fell on black days

Whomsoever I’ve cured, I’ve sickened now
And whomsoever I’ve cradled, I’ve put you down
I’m a search light soul they say
But I can’t see it in the night

I’m only faking when I get it right
When I get it right

‘Cause I fell on black days
I fell on black days

How would I know
That this could be my fate?
How would I know
That this could be my fate? Yeah

Uh, uh, uh
Uh, uh, uh
Uh, uh, uh

So what you wanted to see good
Has made you blind
And what you wanted to be yours
Has made it mine

Don’t you lock up something
That you wanted to see fly
Hands are for shaking
No, not tying, no, not tying

I sure don’t mind a change
I sure don’t mind a change
Yeah, I sure don’t mind, sure don’t mind a change
I sure don’t mind a change

‘Cause I fell on black days
I fell on black days

How would I know
That this could be my fate?
How would I know
That this could be my fate?

How would I know
That this could be my fate?
How would I know
That this could be my fate?

I sure don’t mind a change


Recently I read Everybody Loves Our Town: An Oral History of Grunge , a book about the grunge movement. I learned a lot about Chris that I didn’t know in this book. You can read my original post HERE.

Also, my original post on Temple of the Dog is HERE.

and my recent music haul featuring Temple of the Dog is HERE.

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Here are two great songs…

Show Me How to Live by Audioslave

Lyrics
And with the early dawn
Moving right along
I couldn’t buy and eyeful of sleep
And in the aching night under satellites
I was not received
Built with stolen parts
A telephone in my heart
Someone get me a priest
To put my mind to bed
This ringing in my head
Is this a cure or is this a disease
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
And in the after birth
On the quiet earth
Let the stains remind you
You thought you made a man
You better think again
Before my role defines you
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
And in your waiting hands
I will land
And roll out of my skin
And in your final hours I will stand
Ready to begin
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life
Now show me how to live
Show me how to live

Burden in My Hand by Soundgarden

Lyrics

Follow me into the desert
As thirsty as you are
Crack a smile and cut your mouth
And drown in alcohol
‘Cause down below the truth is lying
Beneath the riverbed
So quench yourself and drink the water
That flows below her head

Oh no there she goes
Out in the sunshine the sun is mine

I shot my love today would you cry for me
I lost my head again would you lie for me
I left her in the sand just a burden in my hand
I lost my head again would you cry for me

Close your eyes and bow your head
I need a little sympathy
‘Cause fear is strong and love’s for everyone
Who isn’t me
So kill your health and kill yourself
And kill everything you love
And if you live you can fall to pieces
And suffer with my ghost
Just a burden in my hand
Just an anchor on my heart
Just a tumor in my head
And I’m in the dark

So follow me into the desert
As desperate as you are
Where the moon is glued to a picture of heaven
And all the little pigs have God


The one song that always gets to me, every time I hear it. This is one of the first grunge songs that I learned on my guitar and I would play it repeatedly. This one has probably been posted on my blog three times. It’s my favorite ever and also features Eddie Vedder, singer of Pearl Jam.

Hungar Strike – Temple of the Dog

Lyrics
I don’t mind stealing bread
From the mouth of decadence
But I can’t feed on the powerless
When my cup’s already over-filled
But it’s on the table.
The fire’s cooking.
And they’re farming babies
While the slaves are all working.
Blood is on the table.
The mouths are choking
And I’m going hungry
I’m going hungry [Repeat: x3]

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Chris Cornell with Andrew Wood

Together again…

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Rest in peace, Chris. I’ll never forget you…

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Temple of the Dog

Temple of the Dog was a band assembled for the purpose of creating an album to pay tribute to Andrew Wood who died in 1990.

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Andrew Wood

Andrew Wood was the lead singer of Mother Love Bone, known to be one of the founding fathers of grunge–one who defined the grunge movement. Wood struggled with drug addiction and was in and out of rehab until  March 16, 1990, when he was found dead from a heroin overdose.

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Chris Cornell with Andrew Wood

“Right after Andy died, we [Soundgarden] went to Europe, and it was horrible, because I couldn’t talk about it, and there was no one who had loved him around. I wrote two songs, “Reach Down” and “Say Hello 2 Heaven”. That was pretty much how I dealt with it. When we came back, I recorded them right away. They seemed different from what Soundgarden naturally does, and they seemed to fit together. They seemed like music he would like. I got the idea to release them as a single, and to get at least Stone and Jeff, or all of Love Bone, to play on it. I had the idea for a couple days, then, with an artist’s lack of self-confidence, I decided it was a stupid idea. Somehow those guys heard the tape, and they were really, really excited. Stone and Jeff and our drummer, Matt, had been working on a demo for what ended up being Pearl Jam, so we had the idea that we would make an EP or a record, and maybe even do some of Andy’s solo songs.” – Chris Cornell

As Mother Love Bone dissolved, the bassist (Jeff Ament) and guitarist (Stone Gossard) came together to form Temple of the Dog which also included Soundgarden’s Chris Cornell (singer) and Matt Cameron (drummer).

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The album was released in late 1990. Not long after that, Pearl Jam arrived to the scene. It was Pearl Jam’s album “Ten” that bolstered the way for the success of Temple of the Dog’s album. The song “Hunger Strike” which featured Chris Cornell and Eddie Vedder on vocals quickly shot the album up the charts helping it to reach the Top Ten and the album went platinum in 1992.

Track Listing:

  1. Say Hello to Heaven
  2. Reach Down
  3. Hunger Strike
  4. Pushin Forward Back
  5. Call me a Dog
  6. Times of Trouble
  7. Wooden Jesus
  8. Your Savior
  9. Four Walled World
  10. All Night Thing

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“Say Hello 2 Heaven” was released as the second single from the album. This song was a pronounced dedication to the late Andrew Wood.

The song reached number five on the Billboard Mainstream Rock Tracks chart. Continue reading “Temple of the Dog”

Mad Season “River of Deceit”

As a teen in the 90’s, grunge music became my escape. Some of my favorites were: Faith No More, Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Alice in Chains, Soundgarden, Mother Love Bone, Temple of the Dog, Screaming Trees, and of course – Mad Season.

Mad Season formed in Seattle, Washington in 1994 by members of Alice in Chains, Pearl Jam and Screaming Trees. They released only one album, Above, which became one of my favorite grunge albums of all time. Things started falling apart not long after due to Layne Staley’s problems with substance abuse. Even though they tried to get together again, the band crashed following the death of bassist John Baker Saunders in 1999. Layne Staley died three years later of a drug overdose.

Band members included: 

  • Barrett Martin (Screaming Trees) – drums
  • Mike McCready (Pearl Jam) – lead guitar
  • John Baker Saunders (The Walkabouts)
  • Layne Staley (Alice in Chains) – vocals, rhythm guitar

Additional members

  • Mark Lanegan (Screaming Trees, Queens of the Stone Age) – vocals
  • Skerik – saxophone, percussion
  • Chris Cornell – vocals
  • Duff McKagan – Bass

 

“River of Deceit” is one of my favorite songs on the album. Next to “Nutshell”, probably one of my favorite songs by Layne Staley. “River of Deceit” means a lot to me, but mainly it reminds me to be myself and to not let anyone tell me who to be. 

 

The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran

The_Prophet_Cover.jpgThe lyrics of “River of Deceit” were inspired by a combination of The Prophet by Khalil Gibran, which Staley read during the making of the album, and also Layne’s drug addiction which eventually lead to his death on April 5, 2002.

The blurb for the book: Kahlil Gibran’s masterpiece, The Prophet, is one of the most beloved classics of our time. Published in 1923, it has been translated into more than twenty languages, and the American editions alone have sold more than nine million copies.

The Prophet
is a collection of poetic essays that are philosophical, spiritual, and, above all, inspirational. Gibran’s musings are divided into twenty-eight chapters covering such sprawling topics as love, marriage, children, giving, eating and drinking, work, joy and sorrow, housing, clothes, buying and selling, crime and punishment, laws, freedom, reason and passion, pain, self-knowledge, teaching, friendship, talking, time, good and evil, prayer, pleasure, beauty, religion, and death.

My rating for this book is:

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Continue reading for the music video…

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